Mood: :neutral:

Last night I figured out something else Mellissa neglected to inform me about the first affair. Not a lie so much as a lie of omission. I was angry again, and called Alex directly to explain that if he answered my questions truthfully there would be no further business between us. He did (I used some control questions that I already knew the answers for), and I thanked him and wished him well.

I spoke to Mellissa later and explained that because I was in the dark for so long and because of the way my mind approaches problems (which makes me ideal as a software tester), I needed to know everything she had not yet told me. She did so, and I don’t think there are any more secrets left.

We also performed a “post mortem” of our time together, finally really discussing all the things that drove her away. There were MANY times where something would happen and I would do or say something that she would misconstrue, but she would not discuss how she felt with me, so it festered in her heart. For example, when my mother was diagnosed with Huntingdon’s and there was a chance I had it as well, I told her that if I had it then we were not going to have kids. What she heard was me saying, “I now have a reason to not have kids” and she hated me for it. What I had meant was that I didn’t want any chance of passing the Huntingdon’s gene on to my kids…that would have been irresponsible.

These misunderstandings peppered our relationship. If she had only discussed her feelings with me instead of jumping to conclusions we might have been able to avoid this end, but dwelling in the past is no way to live your life, so we have taken these life lessons to heart so we can improve our present and possible future. She is already making sure to not jump to conclusions with Jake, and I’m glad.

However, half of the blame was mine. My anger and emotional withdrawal made it all worse. I have turned my life around and will NEVER scream at my kids again. My primary concern is their wellbeing, and Mellissa’s mental health directly affects that. The time for casting aspersions is over, and we need to make sure our children thrive in their new life. I still have great respect for Mellissa’s parenting skills. She was meant to have children, and taking proper care of those children seems as natural to her as breathing. I understand Jake has stepped up to care for them as well, and that’s a good sign. I hope they make it work, if only so that Mellissa can know she made the right choice, if not the right choice of timing.


Mood: :mad:

Dear Mr. Allison,

You are currently paying a small amount more than your minimum monthly fees on your VISA card so we’re making lots of money off of you. Because of your obvious lack of restraint untempered by your single income we’ve decided to raise your credit limit from $9,000 to $14,000. We hope you’ll go nuts and blow it all on ale and whores.

Love, VISA

Oh well, now I can afford to laser my eyes…

Fuckers.


Mood: :oops:

Well, I’m glad I don’t have to go through a vasectomy more than once. A minor procedure, but very uncomfortable. The recuperation has been faster than advertised, though, with me being able to stride about with minimal discomfort the day after. The itching around the stitches is the worst part, but since the thread is water-soluble it should be gone tomorrow morning.

The best part will be not having to use condoms — well, after three more months and a final test to make sure the procedure was successful, anyway.


Mood: :neutral:

Since I got a flu shot a couple months back, my arm has experienced some aching right there, deep down. Only a few times now, and it goes away by the next day, but it’s annoying.

I got flu shots 3 times in the last 3 years, and the last 2 of those has seen me locked in the bathroom for a 12-hour period sometime that year, spewing from both ends. What is the point of getting the shot if it won’t protect? I’ve been told since that the shot doesn’t protect against stomach flu; well, what’s the freaking point then? I caught non-stomach flu last year, too, and was told that they missed that strain in the shot.

I don’t think I’ll be getting any more shots. Other than last year, the only non-stomach flu I caught was, like, 15 years ago!


Mood: :mad:

Today I received over 400 e-mails. Of those, 2 were valid. TWO!
I’ve trained my bayesian filter for almost a year now and it’s over 99% accurate, so I’m activating the auto-delete. Spammers can suck it.

If you are going to e-mail me something about pharmaceuticals or the size of my member, let me know by IM first. :thrpp:


Mood: :cool:

beast
You are Beast!

You are brilliant and extremely clever. You can
handle almost any problem swiftly and
efficiently. You are devoted to philosophy and
are always up for a good discussion.
Sometimes, though, your anger gets the best of
you and you upset those whom you care about.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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